Im jelous of my little cousin help me please?

wel we both wanted to be singers a while back and both performed infront of family and friends and went to auditions.but she was told to go to an audition wich could make her really famous and told me she didnt want to.then i was on my local malls website checking out jobs and i stumbled across te auditions and she was in one of the pictures up close and i dont know why but im so jelous of her and she is 4 years younger than me and are moms have fallen out over numerous things so i hardly see her anymore and then i stumble across this....help me please?